Oh Happy Day

It was Monday today...the day has come to a close. It is almost my bedtime..:P i will not sleep. I just do not feel like sleeping. I wish that I was less of a girl sometimes lol. I cannot stand the fact that i always think about everything at once especially at night. It is not fair. Most people i know do not think as much as i do. However, i have made it through a ton of crazy stuff in the past. I will make it through everything that is coming in the future as well. :) i know i can do it. No problems and no worries. Hakuna matata..:) Woot! Another day down.. work tomorrow night and through Sunday..fun times i tell you. I cannot wait!Well, i can wait it just wont be easy. haha..hmmm i am so tired right now but i do not want to go to sleep. weird right? i guess but that is how i roll. Something is making my feet twitch...strangeness. I hope that feeling goes away soon. wow..yep. im super tired now.

Michelle

Christmas!!!:D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! :D I cannot believe it! I just got the best presents in the entire world! I just got an amazing laptop and wireless printer! Also a carrying case for the laptop and the printer even came with a bag! I cannot believe it!!!!!! :D I am so excited...you have no idea...

Awesomeness

The New Year to Come

The new year shall bring new and exciting things. I will be taking 5 classes next semester and then graduate in May. The excitement is overwhelming when i think about graduating. :) I cannot believe i have been in college for three years and i am finally going to have my first degree..my Associates degree. You may think this is not such a big deal but it is. I will never have to take any of these classes again. Now i will just be focusing on my major! :D How amazing is that? It is really amazing and awesome and wonderfully fantastic!!! No more worrying about math or government. What else shall next year bring for me? Hopefully a new place to live with the one i love. Johnathan Andrew Couch is the man i would love to marry. I want to make a family with this wonderful man. :) He plans on going into the military soon. The Airforce is his possible choice right now. I am nervous and excited because i love him so much and don't want anything to happen to him, but he will be able to help support the family so much better. Let us take a step back to the end of this year. Christmas is coming up here in a few weeks and i know he is getting me something special. Not quite the real thing, very close to it. I will be so happy with it anyway. It will be an awesome Christmas! Well i should get going...i have much to do today!! :D Bye for now

Scared out of My Mind

A week or so ago my mom was told she had high blood pressure..A.K.A Hypertension. I know this does not sound as bad as maybe cancer or some other deadly disease..but it really is just as bad. My mom is one of those really tough women who never cries over anything. She is the toughest person i know and i have always looked up to her. The high blood pressure is causing her to feel dizzy and nauseous. I really cannot stand to see her this way. It hurts sometimes and i try not to show it because i know my mom does not want me to feel bad for her. How could I not? She is my mother and I love her more than anything in the world. I do not know what i would do without her. Such a stubborn lady she is...LOL. :) I guess i am scared out of my mind because i can see that she is getting worse. The medicine they prescribed is not working so they have to put her on a different medication. I do not see the medications doing anything for her. I am trying to help her stay on a low sodium diet. It is quite difficult though to find low sodium foods. I think i will check out some place online.

The weight has finally been lifted...i think..

Well, I had the most amazing two days of my life. :) Yesterday and Tuesday were so awesome because I got to experience fun again. It had been awhile i must admit. I have been so busy working and getting ready for school. I got to spend time with the man i love. :) That was the best thing about the last two days. Oh there is one more thing...my boss Heather is leaving us. She is going to run the theatre in Lawton..:) I am so excited! I know i know...what a terrible thing for me to say right? Well, no..she is such a depressing woman. I tried to befriend her but she is a really hard person to get along with sometimes. Anyway all of us at work are super excited about this and cannot wait!! :D I do wonder if Julie will be promoted then..if not..then what will be end up with? Someone who is even crazier than Heather? Is this even possible? I would hate to find out. Just sayin......

The turning of a new leaf..

This Sunday it will be two weeks since I started my diet. I have lost 8lbs. thus far and intend to lose many more. My ultimate goal is to lose 60lbs. My current goal is to lose 10lbs. I am almost to that goal. I have really been pushing myself and I have been trying to push others as well. I want everyone in my life to be healthy. My mom is supposed to be doing this diet thing with me, but she is having a much harder time than I am. I told her tomorrow we will really push it. I haven't cheated at all. I am very proud of myself. I have never been able to motivate myself like this. It is invigorating. :) I cannot wait until my body slims down and i can finally fit into some of the clothes i haven't been able to wear in years. I will be logging my progress each week. Sometimes each day..it just depends on how i am feeling that day. :)

Tired..is what i is..

Today seems to have been a very long day. I am so tired i could just keel over onto the floor. :) I will not do that however cuz i am too tired to keel over. Does that make any sense what so ever? Probably not..Oh well...*sigh* The day has ended and night has fallen. It is gonna be another day tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a much better day though. I will get to rest. No worky!!! :D Yayers!! I am so excited you do not even realize! On a wonderful note..i got to spend time with my love and his mommy tonight. :) It was awesome!!! :D I ate a wonderful meal that filled my little tummy and now i am chilaxn all cool. B)

Abstract life..

*Just Dancing and singing* :)





Chaos and all its Wonders..

The day wAs like any other day..trees swaying due to windyness..birds chirped just to annoy..and i was happy. It went slightly down a hill when my boyfriend decided to be asleep when i Came to pick him up for our date. I was highly disappointed and mostly hurt. I did not feel any caring going on. I just wanted him to be ready and willing to go when i got there. He was asleep people! Asleep. Should i have just left him right then and there? I almost did. I had asked him before i got to him to be ready before i came. He said ok i will. Did he do that? No he did not. One thing i ask for and he couldn't even do that. He tried to make it up to me by buying me m&ms and a mr. Pibb. This did not help me at all. He finally decided to say he was sorry during our movie date. He even said i had every right to be frustrated or mad at him. Aint that the truth! Gah..it was a crappy stArt to a date..having to wake him up to go on the date with me really sucked big time. I sure hope i never have to do that again. Tomorrow will be much better! :) i get to see my friends Jessica and Justin! It will be so awesome!!! My boyfriend is coming too and he better be ready..it is all i ask of him. It is not that difficult.

Things going on...

What is up blog!?!? Long time no see...:) I have had an interesting time in my life recently. Some fights, long nights, fun times, and other things. I have always known that life was unfair at times and very much unpredictable. I mean it really can change at any one moment. Friendships and relationships of other sorts can change drastically in a heartbeat..

Taking life by the hands and squeezing it...it will not defeat me. :)

I cannot and will not be defeated. Whatever happens in this life...no matter what..i will always come out on top. There will be no saddness or sorrow. In the words of the Christian artist Jeremy Camp.."There will be a day..with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears." We will all be free to be. Nothing will bring us down and nothing will cause us pain and suffering. We will not fear things. We will only be happy. :) Everything always turns out to be awesome in the end. "

"I am STRONG becuz I am weak.

I am Beautiful becuz i know my flaws.

I am a Lover becuz I'm a fighter.

I am Fearless becuz I've been afraid.

I am WISE becuz i've been foolish and I can Laugh becuz I've known saddness."



This quote really expresses my feelings about life trying to bring me down. I am a strong, beautiful, loving, fearless, and wise person. Okay fearless is pushing it a little, but you catch my drift. ;) Life is not always a &#*$%. :)

Why do i feel the way i feel?

Why can't i just be happy? Why can't i just let things be as they are? Why do i always have to find something wrong? I need to just live. This is the only way i will be able to make it in this wonderful world. I wish I could stop thinking this way. I love my boyfriend to death and i know i can trust him. He is amazing. :) I just have a fear...i hope i am very wrong. Anyways..i plan to take my brother's advice and chillax. I am sure nothing is going on and i should just let things be. :) Everything will be ok. :) I just know it will. I will not allow this to bother me anymore. I know that everything will be ok. I just know i am right...i cannot wait to see again!! :D

A day like any other day..

My day started like any other day...boring and consisted of work. I am so tired right now and I do not feel like teaching my cardio class at TU. I know I should not be such a whiny butt...i just can not help it...eesh..wish me luck...i have more to tell you later..:) So...here is what has happened..i had a revalation. I finally realized how lucky i am and how real my luckiness truly is. :) I am so excited! :D

It's raining it's pouring..the old man is snoring...he went to bed and bumped his head and couldn't get up in the morning..

Rain rain...go away..come again another day..

How beautiful is the rain!
After the dust and heat,
In the broad and fiery street,
In the narrow lane,
How beautiful is the rain!

How it clatters along the roofs,
Like the tramp of hoofs
How it gushes and struggles out
From the throat of the overflowing spout!

Across the window-pane
It pours and pours;
And swift and wide,
With a muddy tide,
Like a river down the gutter roars
The rain, the welcome rain!

The sick man from his chamber looks
At the twisted brooks;
He can feel the cool
Breath of each little pool;
His fevered brain
Grows calm again,
And he breathes a blessing on the rain.

From the neighboring school
Come the boys,
With more than their wonted noise
And commotion;
And down the wet streets
Sail their mimic fleets,
Till the treacherous pool
Ingulfs them in its whirling
And turbulent ocean.

In the country, on every side,
Where far and wide,
Like a leopard's tawny and spotted hide,
Stretches the plain,
To the dry grass and the drier grain
How welcome is the rain!

In the furrowed land
The toilsome and patient oxen stand;
Lifting the yoke encumbered head,
With their dilated nostrils spread,
They silently inhale
The clover-scented gale,
And the vapors that arise
From the well-watered and smoking soil.
For this rest in the furrow after toil
Their large and lustrous eyes
Seem to thank the Lord,
More than man's spoken word.

Near at hand,
From under the sheltering trees,
The farmer sees
His pastures, and his fields of grain,
As they bend their tops
To the numberless beating drops
Of the incessant rain.
He counts it as no sin
That he sees therein
Only his own thrift and gain.

These, and far more than these,
The Poet sees!
He can behold
Aquarius old
Walking the fenceless fields of air;
And from each ample fold
Of the clouds about him rolled
Scattering everywhere
The showery rain,
As the farmer scatters his grain.

He can behold
Things manifold
That have not yet been wholly told,--
Have not been wholly sung nor said.
For his thought, that never stops,
Follows the water-drops
Down to the graves of the dead,
Down through chasms and gulfs profound,
To the dreary fountain-head
Of lakes and rivers under ground;
And sees them, when the rain is done,
On the bridge of colors seven
Climbing up once more to heaven,
Opposite the setting sun.

Thus the Seer,
With vision clear,
Sees forms appear and disappear,
In the perpetual round of strange,
Mysterious change
From birth to death, from death to birth,
From earth to heaven, from heaven to earth;
Till glimpses more sublime
Of things, unseen before,
Unto his wondering eyes reveal
The Universe, as an immeasurable wheel
Turning forevermore
In the rapid and rushing river of Time.





I'm so happy...oh so happy!!! :D

My life is wonderful and i could not ask for a better one. :) I have no regrets and i only look towards the future with a smile. People think that when times are super tough all they can do is cry and mope around. I feel that is a load of hogwash! It is possible to smile during tough times..you just have to stay positive. Thinking happy thoughts will get you far in life..i can promise you this. I have been through some tough situations and always come out on top. : ) Recently, i have had money problems, a pregnancy scare, car problems, and some wonderful family issues. It has been a long hard road..i have kept my chin up and taken life one day at a time. It is finally all coming together. My boyfriend..who has already said he wants to marry me someday...has gotten a job and is working towards joining the military. I am so proud of him. He wants to have a family with me someday and i want the same with him. I am so lucky to have that. We may be broke now, but that will all change in the future. I am in college now working towards my Phd in Psychology. He is going to get into school as well. I am so excited for the future. I know it will all take time...one day at a time. :) Step by step..day by day. The harshness of life can be hard core at times. You just have to roll with the puches. Never give up! Pick yourself up when you get knocked down. It is not fair to the poeple who love you for you to just sit around all day being depressed. Trust me..i have been like this before and my family was worried sick about me. There is always a place to turn when times are tough. Family, friends, therapists, or whatever is best for you. Some people prefer to speak to family, like myself. Others prefer a stranger. It was easier for me to speak to my mom or my boyfriend.

If anyone out there needs to talk..i am available. Just comment on here and we can talk. : ) I am Michelle. i am 21 years old. I love sports and i am a 3rd degree black belt in taekwondo. Tell me about yourself..:)

Squeals from Hell

Have you ever had 6 puppies and 2 dogs? This is my first question to you. I currently have this chaos going on in my house. Ugh...it is so hard to deal with all of the noise. I know they are young, but wow they sure have mouths on them. Minnie is the smallest and she is the loudest..how is this possible? I do not understand it at all. I wish she would just keep quiet. I thought maybe it was because she was hungry. The other puppies don't always allow her to eat. Then i thought she was thirsty because they don't always allow her to drink. No...i tried to feed and water her little belly. She will not have it. She is just so stubborn and bratty. We have to give the puppies away soon. We can not keep them any longer. They are getting bigger and bigger, noisier and noisier. I am finally going to be able to give one away tomorrow. i am so excited because it is one of my friends who is taking him. Spotacus will have a home. :)

"Cabin fever"

What is the meaning of this? Why is there so much snow? God, what is your reason for this weather? I am stuck inside of a house again. Last week was the worst. We got so much snow i was stuck in the house for 4 days. That would have been fine if i had not missed a day of work. I love snow more than anyone i know. I just do not understand why there has to be so much snow. Why does it have to mess with my traveling to work? why? why? why? i do not understand God. I do not understand.