Why do i feel the way i feel?

Why can't i just be happy? Why can't i just let things be as they are? Why do i always have to find something wrong? I need to just live. This is the only way i will be able to make it in this wonderful world. I wish I could stop thinking this way. I love my boyfriend to death and i know i can trust him. He is amazing. :) I just have a fear...i hope i am very wrong. Anyways..i plan to take my brother's advice and chillax. I am sure nothing is going on and i should just let things be. :) Everything will be ok. :) I just know it will. I will not allow this to bother me anymore. I know that everything will be ok. I just know i am right...i cannot wait to see again!! :D