I have never been so scared in my life..I just really want to be happy with the man of my dreams. We have been together for almost 2 years and now we are engaged and yet nothing is really happening. He has yet to have gotten into the military or school. I am so scared. I have a job and i go to school. Most of the time he just sits at home and then goes to work 4 hour days..not even everyday of the week. It is hard for me to listen to friends and family tell me that things probably won't change. I do not want to believe it because i have never loved somebody as much as i love him.....He is the man of my dreams and no one can ever tell me different. I love him so much because we fit each other perfectly. We love each others personalities and we both love to take care of one another. I know that things are really difficult right now and we hardly see each other as it is...but i just know it is going to get better because we both want a family and an amazing future. I know we are going to prove everyone wrong. It is all going to happen... we will have that big house with the white pickett fence..we will have our little kitten and puppy. We will have children and they will be gorgeous and they will look up to their mom and dad who did everything they could to provide for them. :) Our dreams will come true. It is possible and nobody can say differently. The obstacles may be great but we are greater and we will defeat all that stands in our way..:') Please God i pray to you now...in a blog...please allow these things to happen...i know i am not perfect and maybe i do not completely deserve a life such as this..but God please help us! Please! I really really want this more than anything in the world!!!
Thank you,
Michelle :)
